April 17, 2011

deep



That afternoon, he smiled and said: “I want to show you something.”


As we walked, he told me a story


He knows I like it when he tells me stories of pretty girls and violent deaths... His voice soothes me


He began, “you never know what you can find behind a door...


"It is always wise to stay outside lest you find yourself in the cold company of your worst fear.”




The sun was setting. Soft rays of light fought to reach us through the swaying branches


The forest loved us and welcomed our presence every Fall by raining golden leaves on us


I didn't know where he was taking me; I stopped paying attention to the road when he held my hand


-You know you love someone when you don't care about getting lost. Being lost seems somehow impossible when you are with each other-






“...but, like You," -he continued, poking my nose- "she was too curious for her own good and, discarding every warning, she entered the old door...


“Before her eyes, the most monstrous scene she could ever think of: Her own death. 


"In the center of the dark room, a canvas of immense proportions. It was beautifully painted by the masterful -and bloody- hands of her lover. His corpse was laying next to his masterpiece.”



The shadow of a smile crossed his face. “This is it.”


We were at the same river we both knew well but in a spot I had never been at before.


It was a beautiful green river... Large, deep, fast. We used to lay by it and speak of the wondrous creatures that (improbably) inhabited the depth of its waters.


“How far do you dare to go?”


He took off his shoes and offered me his hand. “Come with me”


The water was cold


He was no longer smiling. His eyes were fixed in mine.


My feet soon lost touch with the bottom of the river and I felt its current pulling me down...


Without saying a word, I closed my eyes... The peace of letting yourself go.


It was then when I felt his hand grab mine stronger and pull me towards him.


Once out, he stared at me, as in deep wonder: “You could have died. Are you willing to let me do this to you?”

“No." I smiled. "I'd die for you but I wouldn't let you kill me. Have you ever wondered why I love you?”

"Because I'm pretty?" he teased.

“...because it doesn't matter how deep you take me, you wouldn't let me drown.”

“We could have both drowned...”

“Such is love.”





April 10, 2011

crowded






My feelings were for long of my own

I felt alone

I felt unique

but they came with all their mirrors

I feel crowded

I feel raped

I can't find myself anymore









January 20, 2011

ours




The world is Ours to burn

he the fire, me the wind that swirls & fuels

we annihilate the ordinary

we dance in clouds of ash

our music, you’ll breathe

we’re the light at the end of your sanity

in our sweet devastation's darkness

you will finally see


Go mad, everyone, go mad!

be as crazy as we are

...and exist again

feel the wind in my eyes

suffer the red of his heart

die sweetly by our hands

...and exist again

eternally

on fire





January 19, 2011

frozen





a picture can be what it takes for a heart to tremble 
and a world to shake

an instant flies by and future finds me lost in pixels

drowning in a river of shades like that mighty horse on quicksand

Brightness&Contrast reach out for my memories...

strike them against the walls of my skull

it is my blurred vision of you behind the glass...


a moment that should be forgotten, frozen in time

I cannot tear you into shreds 


but I close you 

forever 

as I close this tab



October 2, 2010

boundless





she threw herself at the Universe
and drifted away
among the stars

freedom invaded her soul
boundless landscapes
Unicorns
made of Cosmic dust

she danced
motionless
to the song of galaxies
vibrating eternally

alone she was
but ever felt so warmly embraced

eyes closed
happiness gripped her by the throat
as a black hole shattered her body
into a zillion pieces of stardust


                                

September 9, 2010

i want it all





all I want is You

I close my eyes and see your ghost

even when I kiss them, 


I close my eyes to dream~ Because

it is You trespassing my eyelids~ Because

it is You taking me beyond

I wish you'd drag me to your abyss and kiss me til I burn

~~
...how does it feel? 

How does it feel to be a goddamn King in a forbidden realm?



what I want is the grip of Your hands 


long fingers, like snakes, wanting to devour me

wanting to creep along my body-scratch it-hurt it...

...inflict the sweetest pain a woman could ever feel

I want your guns
your precious monsters
I want your darkness
your anger
your coldness
your sweetness
your fucking dont's...

I want it all 


                

heaven in hell





So I’m that borderline between heaven and hell...

It scares you that I dare
to write you out and cut the fragile thread that keeps you sane

There's no greater abyss than that which separates your thoughts from your words~
you speak because you know-I know what you are thinking when you hush

But I can feel the goosebumps raising in your skin when you hear my voice 
across the silence of distance

But there’s your sight running away at night
much too scared of seeing me in the stars~

and there’s the cornered chaos of your mind foretelling you a storm
yet craving for its twist~

and there’s your body forever enslaved by my whims

In Your Nightmares, I’m Your Dream